08 Feb Shredding & Trust
As I shred my wall of inspiration – magazine photos, quotes, hand-painted calendar – images I’ve loved, colours schemed, quotes chewed upon… I think of many things and of nothing. Being a woman, I tend to think of too many things pretty much all the time. But right now I’m feeling excruciatingly grateful to be making a living creatively – to be making a creative living – to be living a creative life. My political science degree is literally sideways at the moment, during these renos. I never could have anticipated the leap from wayward arts major to designer. But I am happy.
This is the first time I’ve been at the office alone after dark in many moons. Tonight I’m enjoying new light shed from 3 Belgian pedant lamps procured across the street from Jennifer Swan at Lakestyle Light and Living. And a new wall, freshly troweled today between web development sessions. Tomorrow I’ll take plaster to my living wall. I have loved its motion and friendly clutter. But with the pervasive disarray of motherhood at home, I prefer a “smoother” rough surface now. It will be a deep teal when I’m done. Then some of my favourite logos will be hung – metal works that the talented and ever versatile Cajsa Freiden of Black Star fame (also across the street) is working on.
Back to my wall coming down…I’ve scraped down what I could and will leave a few things behind the plaster for the power of their “conscious infusion” as my clients and all-round wonderful people at Salome Naturals might say.
The quote that brought me back to my seat when I was poised to leave tonight? Here it is. Take or leave the religiosity – convert it as you may – to me this is motivation for those brave moves we make as we begin, end and persevere in everything we do:
“The way of trust is a movement into obscurity, into the undefined, into ambiguity, not into some predetermined, clearly delineated plan for the future. The next step discloses itself only out of a discernment of God acting in the desert of the present moment. The reality of naked trust is the life of the pilgrim who leaves what is nailed down, obvious, and secure, and walks into the unknown without any rational explanation to justify the decision or guarantee the future. Why? Because God has signaled the movement and offered it his presence and his promise.”
Ruthless Trust: The Ragamuffin’s Path to God